A Letter to myself.
My current self.
My current 28 year old self.
It seems like you’ve gone and done it again. It’s like you never learn, isn’t it?
Your experiences don’t count, you don’t play safe at all?
Why do you trust so easily? Why?
Why do you believe that the world is filled with nice people,
who will never break your heart?
Why is it so easy for you to say those 3 precious words – “I TRUST YOU!”
Your heart has been broken so many times before, that I’ve seriously lost count.
You mourn about it, you victimize yourself, you sulk and beat yourself up real bad over it.
You do everything, except learn from it.
Wasn’t there that nagging feeling that you don’t trust him?
You ignored that, right?
Hmmmm. this is a common case of ‘disconnected from reality’
Time to give you a dose of that soon (reality, of course.)
Who can you trust then, you ask me?
I won’t say no one. THAT is unrealistic.
But I can tell you this, reserve the amount of trust you put in people,
so that when the person who truly deserves your trust comes along,
you won’t break his heart by not trusting him – and thus, put an end to this vicious cycle.
Your wounds will heal,
but let your scars remind you to be realistic in your expectations.
The less you expect, lesser the disappointment when it does not happen.
I’ve got my eyes on you.
don’t forget what I just told you!
The past (& future) Lucille :)